Coincidence?

There is no denying that the pain I have become accustomed to has worsened since I started working.  I was talking to my mom about this last night.  In the last (almost) three months, my pain level has doubled.  It was tolerable, while I was sitting at home doing nothing at all.  Sure, it makes sense now that I think about it.  Doing nothing doesn't put much strain on a person, so while I was still in pain, it was tolerable.  It has become increasingly intolerable and I have been in tears several times in the last couple of weeks, due to either the pain, or frustration at never having a moment without pain.

So, I think it is no coincidence that now that I am out and working, and interacting with human beings again, that I am in so much pain.  Yesterday proved to be the end of what I could tolerate.  I was stirring melted chocolate, making amaretto fudge for our work "End of the World Gorging Party."  When switching to my right hand, I felt something "slip" in the middle of my back, on the right.  It felt about the same as the time I was reaching for sour cream and likely ruptured the lowest disc in my back, ending up in the ER and down for several days recovering.  This time though, the pain was a lot higher. 

I doubled over in pain, and it hurt to breathe for a few minutes.  Once the pain breathing in subsided, I leaned back up to what I was doing and painfully finished the fudge.  With my left hand.  My right side under my shoulder hurt to bad, plus I'm left-handed anyway...