Saturday, July 30, 2005

It's been 5 long months since I was last on here. I've had a lot to write about, but for some reason never really got around to it. I'll try to just ramble on about recent events, rather than try to recount the entire last 5 months.

I had chance to talk to my friend Angi on Wednesday. We hadn't seen each other or talked in a while, but she called me and we had a really good conversation which lasted almost an hour. We ended by promising to get together sometime next week.

Thursday night I called Kris to have him get me some sandpaper for my latest project which I will explain in a bit. He sounded 'weird' and I knew immediately that something was wrong. When pressed, he told me that Angi (who I had just talked to the day before) and her two youngest boys were killed in a car accident. All I could say was "No, no, no. I just talked to her." And even now as I try to process it all, I do not get too far in thinking about it because I still can't seem to comprehend it having just spent an hour on the phone with her. I guess that's what is called denial. In some ways I just want it to hit me so that I can start to deal with it, but at the same time it scares me to face it.

We talked to Katherine about it all...when she was born Angi had a really special bond with her, as she was a little girl and Angi had all boys. She was the only person who ever called Katherine "Gracy" and the only person Katherine allowed to call her that. And Katherine had talked to her on the phone Wednesday too about coming over to her house. So anyway, I was talking to Katherine Thursday night about it and she said "It's a good thing that we didn't go anywhere today and get into an accident." She also asked me why God didn't let everyone in the world live forever. First of all, what is an almost 5-year-old doing thinking like that and how do you answer that? I just told her that I didn't know. That mommys and daddys don't know everything, but God does and she accepted that. She is amazing to me sometimes in how she thinks and the questions she asks. A neighbor was talking to me yesterday about it all and as if she was a grown up herself trying to talk and sort through grief Katherine informed the neighbor that she had gone to Angi's house before. Kind of a whole strange, surreal time right now.

Kaleb had a hand in saving a little girl at the pool last week. The kids had been playing with this girl just about Kaleb's age. For some reason the girl had taken her floaties off and apparently got out to where she couldn't touch. I noticed that she was kind of bobbing up and down, and at first thought she was playing. Then I saw her head start to go under. Kaleb was actually right in front of her kind of watching this happen....and as the mom screamed and the lifeguard came running Kaleb simply grabbed her under her arms, pulled her up and held her until they got there. It was only a matter of seconds that this all took place, but I have never been prouder of him. I still can't fathom what was going on in his head to make him reach out for her and pull her up. Katherine was right there too....but did not react like Kaleb did. It was like it was instinct or something and I am so proud to have been able to witness that.

I guess that is all for now. I'll hopefully get back on here with pics of the newly remodeled bedrooms once we get them done.